I know I’ve been absent for far too long.
However, I did begin writing again earlier this week. When I finish it, I’ll post it, but something else took precedence today.
And that’s just where I am this week. Pondering my absence.
In an attempt not to be absent in all facets of my life, I sent a text to a dear friend this morning to check in with her on a prayer request she had shared with me a few weeks ago. Her response was a little like a mini jack-hammer to me. Not in a destructive way, but in a way that shakes you so as you can’t help but give it your full attention. She said that I had been on her mind and heart; that she had a feeling I needed to talk.
Little did I know, I really, really did need to talk. So talk, we did. And it was Good – with a capital G.
I’ve talked about this before (Losing Myself in the Building of Cathedrals), but sometimes I think we get to a point in our lives where we are so busy building our little Cathedrals that we get lost in them. And well, there are times that it just has to be that way. But there are other times, when we are busy working away on their little cathedrals, all the while thinking that our own cathedral – built long ago – is sturdy as a rock and standing the test of time – only to find out that maybe it’s not.
Usually things that were built way-back-when seem to be built better than the new stuff. It seems like older structures are more sturdy, more sound. But, guess what? Not always the case. Sometimes, the ancient things crumble. Especially if they aren’t getting the regular maintenance and attention they need.
This blog has focused on giving my cathedral the little stuff it needs so it can keep on standing firm while the building of the little cathedrals happens.
Sometimes that little stuff means my cathedral just needs a new coat of paint.. and something like a girls trip to the beach adds enough color to your skin to take care of it. 🙂
Sometimes, our mom-cathedrals just need a little landscaping.. and a trip to the salon for a haircut – or a mani/pedi spruces things up and makes things feel tranquil again.
Sometimes it’s the simple little maintenance that holds it all together.
And then other times, a cathedral has serious foundation issues.. something for REAL that rocks it to the ground. – People get sick. Really sick. People lose their way. They lose their partner. Or a friend. Or a parent. — Serious foundation issues. — The ones that cause destruction, requiring total demo and huge construction crews to build it back.
Thankfully, my cathedral doesn’t have serious foundation issues right now. But if it did, I know the construction crew that I would call in to do the job.
You know those friends. The Tried and True Friends. The friends that make you feel comfortable showing all of your cracks, at the same time making you confident in the beauty in your age. They’re the friends that have Faith in the One Great Architect. They’re the friends that He sent to me in my earlier building stages… and that the One Great Architect is still sending my way with each new phase of life.
Today one of my most beloved and experienced construction crew told me just exactly what I needed to hear as I struggled to figure out what needed to be rearranged and renovated in my Cathedral. It was simple really. Everything is in place; she just reminded me that I need to clean the windows and let the light shine in on it.* The light can’t shine in if you aren’t cleaning the windows regularly.
The important thing here is found in this quote I read today:
“How might your life have been different if there had been a place for you? A place for you to go… a place of women, to help you learn the ways of woman… a place where you were nurtured from an ancient flow sustaining and steadying you as you sought to become yourself. A place of women to help you find and trust the ancient flow already there within yourself… waiting to be released… A place of women. How might your life be different?” ~Judith Duerk, Circle of Stones
Do you have an expert construction crew? Do you consult with them often enough? And do you thank the ONE GREAT ARCHITECT for them and the gifts He Graced them with? Because, today especially, I sure do.
* I need to give my faith life a little more time and attention.